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[22 Jan 2005|11:40am]
[ mood | blank ]

Memories consume
Like opening the wound
I'm picking me apart again
You all assume
I'm safe here in my room
Unless I try to start again

[Bridge:]
I don't want to be the one
The battles always choose
'Cause inside I realize
That I'm the one confused

[Chorus:]
I don't know what's worth fighting for
Or why I have to scream
I don't know why I instigate
And say what I don't mean
I don't know how I got this way
I know it's not alright
So I'm breaking the habit
I'm breaking the habit
Tonight

Clutching my cure
I tightly lock the door
I try to catch my breath again
I hurt much more
Than anytime before
I had no options left again

[Bridge:]
I dont want to be the one
The battles always choose
'Cause inside I realize
That I'm the one confused

[Chorus:]
I don't know what's worth fighting for
Or why I have to scream
I don't know why I instigate
And say what I don't mean
I don't know how I got this way
I'll never be alright
So, I'm breaking the habit
I'm breaking the habit
Tonight

[Bridge:]
I'll paint it on the walls
'Cause I'm the one at fault
I'll never fight again
And this is how it ends

[Chorus:]
I don't know what's worth fighting for
Or why I have to scream
But now I have some clarity
to show you what I mean
I don't know how I got this way
I'll never be alright
So, I'm breaking the habit
I'm breaking the habit
I’m breaking the habit
Tonight

Kiss Me

[22 Jan 2005|11:37am]
[ mood | blank ]

I am a little bit of loneliness a little bit of disregard
Handful of complaints but I can’t help the fact that everyone can see
these scars
I am what I want you to want what I want you to feel
But it's like no matter what I do, I can't convince you, to just believe
this is real
So I let go, watching you, turn your back like you always do
Face away and pretend that I'm not
But I'll be here 'cause you're all that I got

[Chorus]
(I can't feel the way I did before)
(Don't turn your back on me)
(I won't be ignored)
(Time won't heal this damage anymore)
(Don't turn your back on me)
(I won't be ignored)

I am a little bit insecure a little unconfident
Cause you don't understand I do what I can but sometimes I don't make
sense
I am what you never wanna say but I've never had a doubt
It's like no matter what I do I can't convince you for once just to hear
me out
So I let go watching you turn your back like you always do
Face away and pretend that I'm not
But I'll be here 'cause you're all that I've got

[Chorus]
(I can't feel the way I did before)
(Don't turn your back on me)
(I won't be ignored)
(Time won't heal this damage anymore)
(Don't turn your back on me)
(I won't be ignored)

(No)
(Hear me out now)
(You're gonna listen to me, like it or not)
(Right now)
(Hear me out now)
(You're gonna listen to me, like it or not)
(Right now)

(I can't feel the way I did before)
(Don't turn your back on me)
(I won't be ignored)

[Chorus]
(I can't feel the way I did before)
(Don't turn your back on me)
(I won't be ignored)
(Time won't heal this damage anymore)
(Don't turn your back on me)
(I won't be ignored)

I can't feel
Don't turn your back on me
I won't be ignored
Time won't heal
Don't turn your back on me
I won't be ignored

Kiss Me

umm coke... [22 Jan 2005|11:35am]
[ mood | bored ]

When I pretend everything is what I want it to be
I look exactly like what you always wanted to see
When I pretend, I can’t forget about the criminal I am
Stealing second after second just cause I know I can but
I can’t pretend this is the way it’ll stay I’m just
(trying to bend the truth)
I can’t pretend I’m who you want me to be, so I’m

[Chorus]
(Lying my way from you)
No no turning back now
(I wanna be pushed aside so let me go)
No no turning back now
(Let me take back my life,I’d rather be all alone)
No turning back now
(Anywhere on my own cuz I can see)
No no turning back now
(The very worst part of you is me)

I remember what they taught to me
Remember condescending talk of who I ought to be
Remember listening to all of that and this again
So I pretended up a person who was fittin’ in
And now you think this person really is me and I’m
(Trying to bend the truth)
But the more I push the more I'm pulling away 'cuz I'm

[Chorus]
(Lying my way from you)
No no turning back now
(I wanna be pushed aside so let me go)
No no turning back now
(Let me take back my life I’d rather be all alone)
No turning back now
(Anywhere on my own cuz I can see)
No no turning back now
(The very worst part of you)
(The very worst part of you is ME)

This isn’t what I wanted to be, I never thought that what I said would
have you running from me
Like This
This isn’t what I wanted to be, I never thought that what I said would
have you running from me
Like This
This isn’t what I wanted to be, I never thought that what I said would
have you running from me
Like This
This isn’t what I wanted to be, I never thought that what I said would
have you running from me
Like This

[Chorus]
(You)
No turning back now
(I wanna be pushed aside so let me go)
No no turning back now
(Let me take back my life I’d rather be all alone)
No turning back now
(Anywhere on my own cuz I can see)
No no turning back now
(The very worst part of you)
(The very worst part of you is me)

Kiss Me

[12 Nov 2004|07:08pm]
[ mood | lonely ]

so I stuck around work for like 2 hours just so I could talk to Chatham today about the other night @ speeds....basically it won't work he doens't think & he says nothing will probably ever come of it...was really hurt by it cause I really like him & would like to at least try..."I'm a cool girl & fun & chill to be around & hang with...??????? I don't get it I really don't.

How do I attract guys I'm not interested in but I can't get a guy I really like & get along with to look twice at me?

Like I don't even know if we are going to have a friendship now...I hope we still do but I don't know I didn't get to that cause he had to get inside to work & it was freezing outside....so yah....I'm really confused & hurt right now...

Krystal isn't picking up her phone...though she's with her dad so I don't blame her....it's just the one person I really really really wanna talk to right now it's like 300 miles away...so yah...I have no one to talk to...my mom doens't totally get it...so yah...I'm just really torn right now....

After what happened tonight I'm really really thinking about why do I need to stay here?yah know...it's not like I have anyone or anything keeping me here.yah I got my family & Krystal here but I don't know...no one has asked me to stay here & it's not like anyone would....so yah...I don't know...now I'm just bitching...so Imma go...

but yah did I mention how weird it's going to be to work the rest of the time Chatham is still at Lonestar...after spilling my gut to him about how I feel about him...so yah

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What do I do....does he feel the same [07 Nov 2004|11:45pm]
[ mood | confused ]


Ok so I just need to get this out...but with my luck he'll find this & never talk to me again...but I will have to take that chance...
There is this guy that I work with...his name is Chatham...he works in the kitchen...and I really really like him...I've liked him for a while...a good 7 months or so...just no one actually ever knew...not a soul..not even Krystal...I didn't want to like him...cause I didn't want anyone to find out I liked him cause I didn't want it getting back to him...cause I thought if no one knew it would go away...it would pass you know? I thought if I kept it to myself there would be no chance for hurt or rejection.But it never went away it just got stronger...no one ever caught on that I liked him cause I'm a flirt my nature...but when I would flirt with him it would be different...
But Tuesday night it came put that I liked him...no everyone at work knows & so does he....I'm not ashamed of everyone knowing...I'm just afraid it will turn him away....Anyway Tuesday night after work...I went to Speed's house Chatham invited me over...so I went over there after work & Speed was trying to get us together & I told Speed what I was feeling & he assured me that chatham wasn't like that. So we went to bed well actual just went into one of the bedrooms & watching some movies...we were both pretty bent from drinking like fouls...& I came out & told him that I really liked him & had for a while now...we started kissing & I was trembling from being so nervous thinking that it would never happen & he asking me why I was trembling & I told him & asked him what he thought about what I just told him & he was like "I like you" & he trailed off & said he hadn't been in a relationship for like 4 years...then he just started kinda rambling...I said that I would like to see where it could go...& he nodded his head but didn't say anything...we kissed some more..but we never had sex...that we didn't do I wasn't jumping into that right away cause I really do want to see where it could go & if I had sex with him that night it could have blown everything plus I want to know that he actually does like me & doesn't just want to use me for a piece of ass.yah know?
I just don't get it...why can't I be that blunt & honest when I'm sober...yah know? Why do I have to be drunk to be honest about how I feel about him?Like Thursday night he came back to pick me up & take me home & I just couldn't get out the words to ask him about Tuesday at Speeds.Why couldn't I? I really like him & I just want...not even want I need to know so I can either move on or persue.but I can't get the guts up to ask him about it...ask him if he regreted anything.I"m so scared that the reason he acted like that was cause he was drunk...though he said he was pretty sober when we started fooling around. I just...grrrr....I'm ready to date again...I'm over the whole I want AJay back...I have been for a while...But I've been in a rut lately...yah know... I any guy I seem to like has to interest in me & now that it seems there is a light that Chatham does I'm scared to find out for sure...
WHAT DO I DO?
HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Kiss Me

HAPPY HALLOWEEN!!! [31 Oct 2004|06:10pm]
[ mood | mischievous ]

HAPPY HALLOWEEN EVERYONE!

Hope everyone has a fun & SAFE Halloween tonight & you get lots of candy...

I went out with some friends early halloween morning to Rocky Horror Picture show.It was a hella lot of fun...I was lil red riding hood the tramp years as Krystal said I was...but damn i was hot....

We had a lot of fun too...then afterwards we went to Bunnyman Bridge & me & Dan scared the shit outta Krystal & Lisa...*lol* so that was fun...so I celebrating Halloween a lil early cause everyone is working tonight believe it or not!

So yah...I'm uploaded pictures from the event right now to my webshots photo book...so go take a look....though some of the pictures are really blurry cause my mom don't know how to use a digicam *lol*

Kiss Me

I got a new digi cam yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay [18 Oct 2004|11:46pm]
[ mood | bouncy ]

So what's up everyone? I just got off work. I didn't want to go to work...lotsa reasons why but we won't get into that so yah...Anyway I went away for the weekend that was lots of fun...yaay...

My mom bought me a new digital camara today...it's so cool it's so tiny too...*lol* I really like it...I have been snapping pictures of my self none stop since this afternoon...

Also I dyed my hair black yesterday...it's looks really good...it's not perment though I got temperay just to see how it looks...And I like it & most everybody else does too so I think I might go permenant next...I don't know what do you guys think...
I'll leave some pictures that I took today...

 

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Kiss Me

***Big sigh*** [14 Oct 2004|11:09pm]
[ mood | shocked ]

So tonight was fun after waiting for ever at Lonestar I even gave my closing shift for lunch away so i could be off in time & they didn't get there till like 6:30.But it was fun we saw Forgotten it was good.Then we went to Ihop for dinner.That was interesting. I see why she's loves those guys so much though they are entertaning that's for sure not a dull moment ever so yah.

And I do like Adam but yah don't wanna like anyone right now.Different reasons but I do like him.But I don't know Aaron's gone & I'm not waiting for him I am sick of waiting for him cause I waiting a long time for him I'm sick of waiting I really am. Like it's just odd that now that he's in jail he wants to be together again.I find that odd...doesn't anyone else find that odd.I mean for a year after we broke up he didn't want to get back together we broke up cause he needed time to himself & blah blah blah & then he starting dating someone else. And now that he is in jail for the next 2 years its like he's clinging to the closet thing to him that knows or thinks he knows that will stand by him.Yes I'll stand by him just not in the way he wants me too yah know I do love him & a lot of the times I don't want too.
I'm 19 I shouldn't be looking to settle right?...right!I don't even know if it's love he really feels after everything he has put me through all the shit & everything.No one gets the shit he has done to me.
I want to date other people & not worry about settling down yah know I shouldn't have to worry about that @19.
But I do like Adam....Krystal said tonight that he likes me too cause he was showing off? I don't know but I did have fun with him tonight. I don't know Chris & Krystal know him better.Well just see
But I have to get going now cause I have to work in the mornin.

Kiss Me

The Ultimate Silence [13 Oct 2004|07:27pm]

THE ULTIMATE SILENCE
October 12, 1998




Listen to the mustn'ts, child.
Listen to the don'ts.
Listen to the shouldn'ts,
The impossibles, the won'ts.
Listen to the never haves,
Then listen close to me ...
Anything can happen, child.
Anything can be.

~ Shel Silverstein


Six years ago today, Matthew Shepard was murdered for being homosexual.

What will you do to end the silence?

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[03 Oct 2004|03:52pm]
[ mood | lazy ]

Kiss Me

My Prerogative~Britney Spears [02 Oct 2004|05:07pm]
[ mood | bitchy ]

Yah been feeling just like this song lately!

SPOKEN:
People can take everything away from you
But they can never take away your truth
But the question is..
Can you handle mine?

They say I'm crazy
I really don't care
That's my prerogative
They say I'm nasty
But I don't give a damn
Getting boys is how I live

Some ask me questions
Why am I so real?
But they don't understand me
I really don't know the deal
About my sister
Trying hard to make it right
Not long ago before I won this fight

Everybody's talkin' all this stuff about me
Why don't they just let me live? (tell me why)
I don't need permission
Make my own descisions (oh)
That's my prerogative

That's my prerogative

[It's my prerogative]

Its the way that I wanna live

[It's my prerogative]

They can't tell me what to do...

Don't get me wrong
I'm really not souped
Ego trips is not my thing
All these strange relationships
It really gets me down
I see nothing wrong
Spreading Myself Around

Everybody's talkin' all this stuff about me
Why don't they just let me live? (tell me why)
I don't need permission
Make my own descisions (oh)
That's my prerogative

That's my prerogative

Everybody's talkin' all this stuff about me
Why don't they just let me live? (tell me why)
I don't need permission
Make my own descisions (oh)
That's my prerogative

That's my prerogative

Its the way that I wanna live

[It's my prerogative]

They can't tell me what to do...

Why can't I live my life?
Without all of the things that people say?

Ohh...

[Shout]

Everybody's talkin' all this stuff about me
Why don't they just let me live? (tell me why)
I don't need permission
Make my own descisions (oh)
That's my prerogative

(They Say I'm crazy) Everybody's talkin' all this stuff about me
Why don't they just let me live? (tell me why)
(they say I'm nasty)I don't need permission
Make my own descisions
(ahhh)That's my prerogative

[That's my prerogative]

Kiss Me

[01 Oct 2004|10:43pm]
[ mood | depressed ]

so yah I guess it's time for another update...
Actually I got a lot of shit to say... I just don't know where to begin or how to actually say it...
Just shit is crazy right now...my head feels like it's about to explode. I don't even know.Work fucking sucks...It isn't even worth my time making the 20 minute commute most of the time or waking up at 9 to be there at 10:30.Some days it's worth it but most days it's not.Like today I made fucking 19 bucks... like if I had a car that would go right into my gas tank & not even fill it up all the way.
I feel like such an outcast @ work too.Like I don't know...I know I'm not even close to as pretty as half of the girls I have worked with & that work there now.I'm not the "ideal" size for what is suppose to be. And it sucks I wish I was skinny & pretty & not wearing half the clothes I have to wear.I hate it & I don't even know what to do anymore.Like I found out today from a guy that I work with that apparently I'm not pretty enough or whatever to be working while the VP of the company & new district manager is there checking everything out.I mean then why the fuck do I even bother to show up to work...help them out cause we are short handed...but maybe I should stop...cause apparently they don't want me there anyway...hmm I wonder what they would do if I put my 2 week notice in if I'm not needed...I don't know I'm bitter today...have been since I got off work.
Plus the romance department sucks...I mean Aaron is gone for the next 2 years.And it seems no one even looks twice my way.I mean who could blame them though right? I mean I don't even know what I mean.I haven't had a steady relationship since me & Aaron broke up last september.I mean I've had relationships since we broke up but nothing to write home about persay.And I've had my lil "school girl crushes" but they come & go I got one that I kinda like now but that will never go anywhere & I'm glad about that cause he's 10 years older then me why I like him is beyond me...so yah it will fade with time I give it like 2 more weeks if that.I think I just like him cause he's a flirt yaknow & not many guys flirt with me.So yah I'm just rambling now.
I don't do much after I get off work just come home & watch tv cause the few friends I do have that are still around have actual lives & cars & can actually get places without depending on mommy & daddy like I do. So yah...most of the time I feel like a loner that is just taking up air.So yah..
Imma just go cause I'm just whining & no one wants to hear that.

Kiss Me

whats your scent [20 Sep 2004|03:20pm]

Your Scent is Glow


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gotta go back to work! [20 Sep 2004|03:14pm]
[ mood | energetic ]

I don't even want to go back to work.I mean I do but I don't. I need the money but after being off since last Friday evening it's just blah. I work 5:30 till 10pm. At least I have to energy to close tonight cause since I'm on till 10 who knows what time I'll actually get outta there cause that means I take tables till our doors lock. That can sometimes suck cause people will walk in the door like 10 minutes till we close.It's fucking up but we can't refuse them either. So yah...but I still have 2 and a half hours before I have to be there.
Onto other news...I went up & saw AJay today. That made me really happy. He looks good.He's not getting fat.*lol* Don't worry that's an inside joke between us.So yah.
I hope I make like 50 bucks tonight it is all you can eat rib night that usually brings people in. so yah.
I gotta work a double tomorrow too. I hate double they drain me so much.Plus I only get an hour off in between.And it's Kids Eat Free.Uggg. I love kids don't get me wrong but they can be so messy sometimes.But I still love waiting on them cause they are so curious & are always asking the cutest questions.
I remember one night I had a Korean family come on at like 9:30 or something we closed at 10.And the little girl had to order everything cause her parents didn't speak good english & her parents kept changing there order. And usually I get annoyed when anyone does thi but the little girl was so polite about everything that it was cute.Well when they left after paying there bill I found a note on the back side of a tea bag thing that said thanks Ginny your so nice & I like the earring in your mouth.*lol* it was so funny...and cute. And really makes my job fun to do when people do that kinda stuff for you & she spelled my name right.*lol* No one ever spells my name right!
Alright well I'm out...I gotta find something to do for like the next hour or so.

Kiss Me

Update on last night's entry [18 Sep 2004|11:13am]
[ mood | relieved ]

Ok well I just got off the phone with AJay about 10-15 minuutes ago. He got his sentencing ass backwards at sentencing yesterday morning. Or actually Kelly got it ass backwards...Anyway he got 17 years & 12 & 4 months SUSPENDED!!! not the other way around of serving 12 years. so yah. He only has to serve 2 years & 4 months...2 years at the most...& he got time serving of 3 months & 10 days already under his belt. So I am in a much better mood then I was last night.2 years is a long time it seems but I can deffinetly live with 2 years. We are going to become a family when he gets out. I'm so happy...I'll have my love back with me...We are going to get married & start our own little family.
So yah...I have to bounce now cause I gotta get dressed & go up to Lonestar to get my paycheck & look at my hours Monday & Tuesday!!!!

 

I LOVE YOU AARON JAY ARNOLD!!!

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I FUCKING HATE THE FAIRFAX COURT SYSTEM!!!! I LOVE YOU AARON [17 Sep 2004|07:56pm]
[ mood | depressed ]

This was supposed to be a good day...I just got home from the beach...but no...Kelly just called me a friend of mine that lives in the Square where AJay does...AJay's Sentencing for his charges was today @ 10 am. I wasn't there I was driving home from the beach...Well Kelly called to tell me what happened.He got 20 years & only 5 suspended. so he's got 15 years...he can get out in 12 if he has good behavior.</font></p>

How is this fair....Yes I understand what he did is wrong I'm not saying that it wasn't wrong & I'm not saying he shouldn't pay for his crime he should...but come on 15 years but we say 12 cause it sounds better....JESUS FUCKING CHRIST!!!!  How did it go from being 2 to 4 years to 12 years. What he did is not 12 years worth of punishment.I'm sorry it's just not Fairfax County Court System fucking BLOWS SUPER DONKEY NUTS I FUCKING HATE IT I ALWAYS HAVE & ALWAYS WILL!!!!  My 22 year old cousin is only serving 4 more years then AJay & he is in for something way way way way worse try murder. And he is only serving 16 years & if he gets that ok for only serving 67% he could be out in 9 years tops. What the fuck is this bullshit man...</font>

We were making plans on the way to getting back together working everything out being together being happy with eachother when he got out we were going to start a family together. What now...And yes I'm being selfish I'm allowed to be cause the punishment totally does not fit the crime....they have taken the love of my life away for 12 years 12 FUCKING YEARS!!! I have a right to be pissed out right now.</font>

And for everyone out there that knows me & knows my situation with AJay & doesn't agree with us getting back together just plain ol don't like him FUCK YOU!!! Cause you know what I believe in second chances & guess what he makes me happy & you should just be happy for the fact that he makes me happy so therefore you should be happy for me. And if you can't be happy for me then you aren't really my friend you know why?Cause a friend stands by you no matter what they don't always agree with what you decided or are happy with what you decide. But as long as you are happy then thats all that matters. I don't care anymore I'm going to do what makes me happy & if you don't like it they to hell with you. For once in my life I'm going to go with what I say is right for me & good for me & what will make me happy not everyone else happy ME HAPPY.</font>

I'm going to go up to Fairfax either tomorrow to see him or Monday before work.And you know what I'm going to tell him everything I just said here. If I gotta wait 12 years then I gotta wait 12 years. I've gotta at least try right.waiting around 12 years may not be fair to me but we just gotta take it one day at a time.And if I gotta travel 3 hours to see him when he gets moved down state then I will. cause when he gets moved down state at least I will be able to touch him hug him kiss him & just hold him & hold his hands while I talk to him.Cause I love him & that's all that matters.

Kiss Me

I truly am I blue eyed beauty [14 Jul 2004|11:05pm]


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woo I am what it says I am...it's my sign! [14 Jul 2004|10:57pm]
[ mood | accomplished ]




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Self-Indulgent

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I LOVE MY NEW PURRTY JOURNAL [14 Jul 2004|10:40pm]
[ mood | relaxed ]

My new livejournal looks fucking awesome.I love it...And it's all thanks to Juliebean!!! I LOVE YOU JULIEBEAN!!!! I WILL LOVE YOU FOREVER & EVER & EVER...actually I already do.*lol* here is a link to her journalxjeweliex
yah I'm retarded but I already knew that.I'm just so layed back right now it's not even funny.I finally am working the hours that I want at Lonestar & I even have tomorrow off cause I have a job interview @ 4 @ Build-A-Bear Workshop in Fair Oaks Mall.I'm really excited about that.
But I do have a lot to update on....where do I begin....
OH I KNOW!!! the last time I even wrote in here was after my dog Karma had an accident....Well I'm pleased to announce that SHE'S DOING GREAT!!!!She did have to have surgery but she has pretty much full recovered...We also found out that she was attacked by another bigger dog.We don't know what dog it was though but I think I know what dog it was...we have these neighbors behind us & they have to really big black labs I think they are & they are really fucking mean...So yah...She's so terrified of big dogs now it's really odd cause she use to big like all bark bark at any dog & now she will only bark at dogs the same size or smaller then her.so yah I'm really happy she is ok.
other news AJay's outta jail for the time being...he goes back to court on the 11 of August for his trail I guess...but I'm not sure...I saw him Sunday a friend of his picked me up & we chilled & hung out with his boy Brad who is like a total stoner. So yah...He's cool though...not like other stoners I know. But yah...there is nothing really going on between me & AJay other then a really strong friendship.It's just to hard right now...he's ready to get back together but I don't think I am.I have just now begun to get things in my life back together. I don't want things to go back to the way things were when we dated last year. I can't afford to get things fucked up now.Things are just how I like it...I love him with all myy heart I'm always going to love him & nothing will change that EVER...yah it would be a lot easier to just hate him but I can't & won't pretend to hate him. So yah... I don't know.
I'm actually seeing someone new.His name is Steve. I wish I had a picture to post to show you what he looks like but I don't cause he never takes pictures...*lol* But he's 25...yah yah I know I'm only 19 but who cares about age right? It's nothing serious between us we just are seeing eachother actually there is nothing offical between us.We are just taking things very slowly right now...neither one of us want to get hurt again. I don't want a repeat of what happened with AJay & he doesn't want a repeat of what happened with this chick Amanda he was dating...I dunno I don't press for details if he wants to share he will on his own time all I know is that she hurt him pretty badly. so yah
Well I'm out I wanna go watch some tv in my room...
LATAZ

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Dear God,You may have another angel joining you so...please take care of her [10 Jun 2004|12:50am]
 
Ok this is a really hard entry for me to write...but here it goes...
Karma are oldest dog who we have had forever since I was 7 actually got into an accident this morning.When my dad was leaving for work she slipped through his feet.She came back an hour later & I noticed that she was limping but I just htought that she has ya know stepping on something,nothing to serious...but when we were leaving this morning my mom looked at her...she had 2 huge gagues(sp) on her armpit so my mom took her to the vet after she dropped me off at work...I had my mom call me when the vet knew something more...turns out that the the wounds on here weren't what we thought...we just thought that she got caught up in a fence or something but know something attacked her.It's really serious...they also did some blood tests on her I forget why though I think it's standerd though...anyway she tested really positive for Lime deasise(sp) & she also has fluid in her lungs....my dog is sick she's really sick...they did surgery on her today & we will pretty much know by tomorrow if her leg has to be apputated...cause they don't really know how much nerve damage was done & if it's a lot her leg is useless...and she's just really sick we have to think if what is best for her...we can't be selfish...she's 12 years old...she's lived a good life...but I still don't want to put her down if we have too...I'll miss her to much...it's really strange for a person to say that their dog is thier best friend but she really is...she is so loyal & she's just been a great dog ever since we got her....I know keeping her not putting her down when it's probably best for her to keep her from suffering...but I'm just not ready to say goodbye to her yet.I thought we had at least another year with her.We had no clue she has Lime Deasise & fluid in her lungs...if we did we probably gotten help for her sooner then now & it would probably have helped her chances...
So God if you do have my angel dog joining you soon...please take good care of her...make the pain stop don't let her hurt anymore...and let her know how much her family loves her & is going to miss her...she's a good dog the best dog anyone could ever ask for...
PLEASE EVERYONE PRAY FOR MY BELOVED KARMA!
I LOVE YOU KARMA
 
 
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